Give Me One Good Reason

My faith in people these days has diminished greatly.

People have no respect for anyone. They simply have no manners whatsoever. They like to crap all over you, use you, manipulate you, lie to you, cheat you, abuse you, backstab you, judge you, and straight up hate you.

I remember learning in Psychology that people will judge another person within seconds. Literally. Which is definitely true. I try not to, I always wait to see what people will say and do so I can actually get a feel of who that person is. Nowadays though its such a joke. Trying to make new friends is rough and then there are girls. Hah. They never give a guy a chance. Instead they judge you and you always lose. You get a fake phone number, a no show, a lie of any kind like - I'm seeing someone - when you know they aren't. Its just awesome. Not.

What really irks me is how some Mormon people are. Some Mormon's I know are just so, how do I put this, "stuck up", "high and mighty", just cause they are Mormon they think they are better than others, especially towards non-Mormons. Being a Mormon myself it sickens me to see Mormon's treat other people like that, not just non-members, I've seen them treat other Mormon's horribly too. That is not how they should act, not just as a Mormon, but as a person. Maybe its just people in Utah, but I doubt that because I'm sure you can find people like this everywhere. Just like you can find stupid people anywhere. But I know there are more "high and mighty" Mormon's in Utah because there are a ton of us here and its just different. You can tell. Even though I chose to end my mission early it helped me see what Mormon's are like outside of Utah.

All I can say right now is that I'm pretty sick of Utah. Tired of the people here. Most of them, not all. I pretty much have no friends to do stuff with, the few friends that I do have live in different places and we only communicate through online games. Which is pathetic. The only people I can rely on is my family.

It amazes me how someone can be your friend one day and then when the next day rolls around they want nothing to do with you for no reason at all. How can people insult you and then turn around the next minute and act like nothing happened? It pisses me off.

It just seems like my prayers are not being heard, falling on deaf ears, because I've been in the same rut for far too long and it has finally taken a toll on me. Music always helps but it can only help so far. A healthy dose of blink-182 along with Shania Twain is my current prescription, yeah weird combination but both are amazing and have been long time favorites of mine. Some of my prayers have been about if I should join the airforce or not, I've been thinking about it a lot because it seems like a good option but I'm I using it as an escape?

I'm pretty much fed up with life, but mainly people. I really hope things will change for the better soon because I don't know how much longer I can hold onto this very thin and small thread of a rope thats left.