Birthday Presents

So yeah....... I am finally getting around to showing you what I got for my birthday, even though it was back in May.

First up is this:

 ARCHER season two in Bluray.  If you've seen it then it is quite self explanatory.  If you haven't, well, it is rated M for Mature.  They don't drop anything bad like an F-Bomb, but they do curse.  The characters are hilarious and quite sarcastic.  I love it, although I probably shouldn't.

Next up is this:

 That is right.  You are seeing it correctly.  It is, in fact, The Lord of the Rings PEZ dispensers with PEZ candy.  It is a fine gift, unique and thoughtful, and PEZ candy is old, and dare I say classic?  Anyway, I haven't had PEZ in many, many, many years.  And this reminded me why.  PEZ is good candy, not great, not amazing, just good.  The problem though lies within opening the package, however they wrap it, it is horribly done.  So bad that you literally end up unwinding and taking the PEZ out one at a time.  It's quite annoying really.  Then you have to put them in the PEZ dispenser itself which is also annoying and time consuming.  Oh sure people would say "Well after all that hard work, the candy will be worth it", wrong.  After all the grueling, annoying, work you put into getting the candy out of the package and into the dispenser, it really isn't worth the effort or candy.  Maybe it would be worth it if it was an amazing candy, but it's not.  Other people would bring up the point of "well why don't you just eat the candy from the package instead?", I could but what is the point of having the dispenser?  Just throw it away?  I think not.  The present was great and like I said thoughtful and unique, but so help me if I get another PEZ gift in the next 30+ years something bad will happen.

Last but not least:

These shoes are Nike's Dual Fusion ST2's.  I'm a fan of Nike, Adidas, and Reebok, so when I chose these shoes I was expecting great things from them.  I was right and I was wrong.  These shoes fit me great, they also look great.  The downfall to them then?  They claim to be running shoes.  Claim to be.  Through all the years growing up, shooting countless basketballs with vigorous footwork, the many years of soccer, the two years of high school track, and the many hiking trails I have traversed, I have never had shin splints, until these shoes.  One of the few times I didn't do my research and it bites me in the butt bad.  I got to talking to my friend, who before his mission worked at a place called "Ossine Shoes".  They sell brands of shoes I had never even heard of, but are apparently some of the top best running shoes.  A lot of popular brands like Nike, Adidas, Reebok, and others like them, according to my friend who worked at Ossine's, says that those brands all have a "running shoe" or "shoes" but really they are not running shoes at all and that you should go with real running brand shoes that actually have awesome support made out of gels and other various stuff.  Brands he mentioned to me are: Asiscs, Mizunos, Saucony, Brooks, and New Balance.  I've been told that Ossine's will even do a foot analysis to help you find out what kind of running shoe you should get.  If I had the cash I would go there right now I get me a new pair of running shoes.  Looks like I'll be using these shoes as more of day to day wear, or simply just running(goofing) around the yard type of shoe, instead of actually running in them.  At least they look good and feel comfortable.  They just aren't the right kind of running shoe for me.

The Sunday Post - Issue #8

So first off, I'm pretty sure that by the time I'm done typing this post out that it will show it as being posted on Monday.  Just a heads up, but it was started Sunday, don't let it fool you.

At first I was going to write something really short like - "insert blog post about families and social gatherings and other various things", and then attach the quote of the day, but I can't cheat myself to do that.  I have to just type out my thoughts, if not to help others then to help myself.

*So yeah, after I typed those two paragraphs I started playing a word game called "Word Whomp" while listening to music.......for an hour.  It has been one of those days that music is really the only cure I have left to lift me up and bring out the tears. (I hate when I tear up or cry, blah)

Church was fine.  I invited my cousin to come and he did.  We had "Linger Longer" today, but there wasn't an actual meal, just brownies and icecream.  Don't get me wrong, both of those are always good, but I was hoping and expecting a meal.  Oh well.

I got invited to go to someones house later in the day to play games and whatnot, but in all honesty it was kind of a dud.  I really can't wait until I get a job, or school, or both.  That way I can have no social life.  I'm pretty sick of most people.  I simply don't get why people do things.  One of the girls tonight said I should hang out with them more.  Yet every time I do it just seems weird, I put forth the effort and I'm friendly and try to talk to certain people and the majority of them don't put any effort to talk to me or to get to know me better, they have their friends already and tend to talk to them.  So I thought it was dumb that that girl had said that to me, because I have tried talking to her to get to know her better and she just doesn't seem to care and doesn't put forth the effort.  So why want me around to hang out if you won't talk to me?  Awesome huh?  People are dumb.  No wonder why I tend to prefer being by myself.  Too many idiots, jerks, disrespectful, fake people out there.  I don't want to deal with all that crap in a social setting.

We talked about families today in sacrament meeting.  Which got me thinking of how I want my children to be very caring towards each other and to always share whatever they get with each other.  I want to teach them the right things.  Far too many people in this world don't teach their kids anything, especially what is right and wrong, or manners, or how to be respectful towards other people.  It really pisses me off.  I swear they should have a test for couples to pass in order to have children.  Way too many ignorant noobs or just too lazy to teach their kids the proper things.

I just feel so down(Thus I didn't want to type a real post because I knew stuff like this would come out, but I had to or I would implode).  I feel so misguided and lost.  Is it wrong of me to wish that when I go sleep that I won't wake up?  That I will just stay asleep dreaming, or that God simply took me away.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  I'm out of ideas.  I have no more will to take another step forward.  I seem to have come to the end of what I can take.  I'm amazed that I get anything done, I mentioned a procrastination box before, but in reality I'm so good at procrastinating that nothing goes in that box, and even farther into reality I don't even have that box, and in the farthest reaches of reality I procrastinate procrastinating.  Yeah, I'm that good at it.  Worthless skills for the win.  Just like me being able to make either eye go lazy, another awesomely useless skill.  Story of life.  At least tomorrow is a new day.

Quote of the Day(Hope):

“My message to you today, my brothers and sisters, is simply this: the Lord is in control. He knows the end from the beginning. He has given us adequate instruction that, if followed, will see us safely through any crisis. His purposes will be fulfilled, and someday we will understand the eternal reasons for all of these events. Therefore, today we must be careful to not overreact, nor should we be caught up in extreme preparations; but what we must do is keep the commandments of God and never lose hope!”   -  M. Russell Ballard,    “The Joy of Hope Fulfilled,” Ensign, Nov. 1992, 31

The Sunday Post - Issue #7

I know this one is posted late.  I literally sat here not knowing what to say.  It is generally the same old crap re-packaged in new paper and bows.  The more things change, the more they stay the same.

Someone used the word "reactivating" in church today while they were giving their testimony and I found myself thinking about how I don't like that word at all.  That word to me isn't real, it doesn't do our fellow members justice.  We are human beings that need care, friendship, fellowship, and love.  The word reactivating just doesn't seem to fit the bill in my opinion.

The one thing that keeps coming up in my mind is something that I had forgotten about and have started to implement in my life again - do one hard thing a day.  Or if you are a fan of the new "Alice In Wonderland" movie, do one impossible thing each day. "Sometimes I believe in as many as six impossible things before breakfast."  and  "Precisely. Gentlemen, the only way to achieve the impossible, is to believe it's possible."  When I say do something hard each day, I'm talking along the lines of going out of my way to do something I normally wouldn't do, something that puts me outside my personal bubble or comfort zone, something that takes courage to do.  It is something that is definitely challenging but has been well worth it so far.  I encourage you to do the same.

I've been wanting to blog about a few things but I seem to just stuff the thought of doing so in my procrastination box.  Hopefully I will get to them soon.

I try to be as friendly as possible and to meet and talk to new people all the time and yet I still feel quite alone.  It is tough on me that's for sure.  No matter how much I pray it still feels like nothing will ever change.  I may be going to a singles ward, going to activities, running and playing basketball by myself, but nothing in the big picture changes.  No job, school still on hold, so on and so forth.

It sucks.  And I don't know how much more I can handle.  I have a ton of motivation but no idea how to get from point A to point B.  Anyway, here is the quote of the day.

Quote of the Day(Courage):

"As an exceptional son or daughter of God, you are sorely needed. There is an urgent need for men and women who will stand for principles against the growing pressures to compromise those very principles. Men and women are required who will act nobly and courageously for what the Lord has defined as right, not for what is politically correct or socially acceptable. We need individuals who have the spiritual, righteous influence that will motivate others to enduring good."    -   Richard G. Scott,  "Living Right," Ensign, Jan. 2007, 14