The Sunday Post - Issue #8

So first off, I'm pretty sure that by the time I'm done typing this post out that it will show it as being posted on Monday.  Just a heads up, but it was started Sunday, don't let it fool you.

At first I was going to write something really short like - "insert blog post about families and social gatherings and other various things", and then attach the quote of the day, but I can't cheat myself to do that.  I have to just type out my thoughts, if not to help others then to help myself.

*So yeah, after I typed those two paragraphs I started playing a word game called "Word Whomp" while listening to music.......for an hour.  It has been one of those days that music is really the only cure I have left to lift me up and bring out the tears. (I hate when I tear up or cry, blah)

Church was fine.  I invited my cousin to come and he did.  We had "Linger Longer" today, but there wasn't an actual meal, just brownies and icecream.  Don't get me wrong, both of those are always good, but I was hoping and expecting a meal.  Oh well.

I got invited to go to someones house later in the day to play games and whatnot, but in all honesty it was kind of a dud.  I really can't wait until I get a job, or school, or both.  That way I can have no social life.  I'm pretty sick of most people.  I simply don't get why people do things.  One of the girls tonight said I should hang out with them more.  Yet every time I do it just seems weird, I put forth the effort and I'm friendly and try to talk to certain people and the majority of them don't put any effort to talk to me or to get to know me better, they have their friends already and tend to talk to them.  So I thought it was dumb that that girl had said that to me, because I have tried talking to her to get to know her better and she just doesn't seem to care and doesn't put forth the effort.  So why want me around to hang out if you won't talk to me?  Awesome huh?  People are dumb.  No wonder why I tend to prefer being by myself.  Too many idiots, jerks, disrespectful, fake people out there.  I don't want to deal with all that crap in a social setting.

We talked about families today in sacrament meeting.  Which got me thinking of how I want my children to be very caring towards each other and to always share whatever they get with each other.  I want to teach them the right things.  Far too many people in this world don't teach their kids anything, especially what is right and wrong, or manners, or how to be respectful towards other people.  It really pisses me off.  I swear they should have a test for couples to pass in order to have children.  Way too many ignorant noobs or just too lazy to teach their kids the proper things.

I just feel so down(Thus I didn't want to type a real post because I knew stuff like this would come out, but I had to or I would implode).  I feel so misguided and lost.  Is it wrong of me to wish that when I go sleep that I won't wake up?  That I will just stay asleep dreaming, or that God simply took me away.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  I'm out of ideas.  I have no more will to take another step forward.  I seem to have come to the end of what I can take.  I'm amazed that I get anything done, I mentioned a procrastination box before, but in reality I'm so good at procrastinating that nothing goes in that box, and even farther into reality I don't even have that box, and in the farthest reaches of reality I procrastinate procrastinating.  Yeah, I'm that good at it.  Worthless skills for the win.  Just like me being able to make either eye go lazy, another awesomely useless skill.  Story of life.  At least tomorrow is a new day.

Quote of the Day(Hope):

“My message to you today, my brothers and sisters, is simply this: the Lord is in control. He knows the end from the beginning. He has given us adequate instruction that, if followed, will see us safely through any crisis. His purposes will be fulfilled, and someday we will understand the eternal reasons for all of these events. Therefore, today we must be careful to not overreact, nor should we be caught up in extreme preparations; but what we must do is keep the commandments of God and never lose hope!”   -  M. Russell Ballard,    “The Joy of Hope Fulfilled,” Ensign, Nov. 1992, 31