Push Off The Edge

Is it wrong that I don't want to eat anything?

Is it wrong that I don't want to wake up?

Is it wrong that I have no ambition or motivation for anything?

Is it wrong that my faith wanes?

Is it wrong that I feel unimportant?

Of course it is wrong, in most cases, but that is how I have been feeling for a long time now.  I have no desire to eat even if I haven't had anything all day.  I sleep far too long because I don't want to face another empty day.  Ambition and motivation have vanished because of my bad luck and turn of events.  My faith wanes because I have tried, I have done my part, and I know that prayer works, and yet here I am in the same old spot.  Why aren't my prayers being answered now? 

I don't know why I try to do anything anymore.  I really don't.  Nothing comes of it.

All I can think of is how I am a failure.  If I had stuck with something I might be somewhere important right now.  Instead I'm in my late twenties, no job, no college degree, an incomplete mission, no place of my own, and no family of my own.  Pathetic.